Can I...???

*p/s: i hope i can be like that for you... 

...sorry...

i'm really feel guilty to him now. yes, it was my fault. make a promise, but not make it. i have promised with him to call him at midnight, but as i was falling asleep, i didn't call him.
when i woke up this morning, i tried to call him. but it failed. i thought he was still sleeping. so, i tried not to bother him. at the afternoon, i tried again, but also failed, and it made me worried. until my friend, also his drama group called me, whether i had contacted with him today or not. i said, i also didn't get any contact with him. so, i became more worried. i tried again to call him, and text him. fail!!! then, i decided to call his sister. his sister said that he still sleeping. argh!!! lastly, i got to talk with him. i scolded him, because he had made me worried and his drama group waited him for 4 hours.
after i called him, i read my inbox in facebook, i saw he had sent me a message this morning, at 3 am, waiting for me to call him. now i know, why he was still sleeping when i called his sister. he waited for me until dawn. but i,... i scolded him, as he not answered my calls. it was my fault actually... i'm sorry (but i don't think by saying "i'm sorry", will pay back all that i have done to him).

Annual Dinner UiTM Foundation in TESL & Law 2011/2012

hi, hi, hi!!!

Just a simple me

it's me again (actually, it's not "again", because this is my blog. haha...). oh, as you can see, this is my picture at the annual dinner at The Zenith yesterday. look so grand huh? hehehe... the white lavender is the true theme for this annual, but as many girls could find any dresses in purple color, so we decided to wear any color that we want. so, i wore the long-sleeves turquoise dress with the set of pearl necklace and bracelet and the black belt. is it too simple?...


anyway, my beloved also went there. he is too handsome and looks dashing. i love people who look very attractive.

He is too a good-looking man, right?

i have already uploaded my picture with him. aren't we a nice couple? May God bless both of us. Amin...

and not forgotten to all my friends, Teslians, i miss you guys for-ever and i won't regret to be friend with you. i hope, wherever we are, we will always happy and remember all the memories that we have done. Our journey from may 2011 until mac 2012 must be stuck at our minds for-ever.

for my lectures, (Madam Jue, Madam An, Madam Shima, Madam Laily, Mr Nawawi, Ustaz Fathir,  Madam Hashimah,

She is really my roommate and my princess.

 Dr Rahmah), i love you all, and thank because you have to bear and accept with my type of naughtiness, laziness and talkativeness. hehehe...

my roommate, Nurrah Nadzirah a.k.a gg... you really look gorgeous yesterday, even i, your roommate can't recognize you. anyway, best try to surprise me, princess... 

I'm not dreaming

• like what you see, i have gotten 2 plates from my campus in English Week Competition (13th-17th February). haha... can't imagine how i can win in this competition especially in poem recitation. i just target myself to win in story telling, and alhamdulillah i got in 2nd runner up. but for poem recitation... wow!!! the winner???
• the most unforgettable moment is when my name was called. i was very surprised that i only sat and stared at all people who were clapping their hands for me. i was blank at that time. really really blank... hahaha... 
• oh, and also, for my group, TESL B!!! we have won as the 2nd runner up in choral speaking competition. we got the big-blue wrap hamper. congratulation to all my classmate, you are deserved to be win...
• lastly, for my bf, congratulation too... as your group have become the winner in choral speaking. hahaha... TESL A are really the best performance and also extremely cute... anyway, i miss all my TESLians..

My Tiny Heart

I tried to face the problem alone. i don't want him to know. yes, it is true, i'm jealous when i saw him with someone else, although he just talks or does his group work.

Everyday, when i saw him in 'that condition', i feel my heart is so sick, it beats faster and more faster until i feel like i can't breathe. it makes me extremely breathless. i also feel, it stabs itself several times, and it's too pain. i try to keep quiet as i don't want anybody knows and especially him, by pushing my chest harder, slowly taking the breath and making my surrounding blur for a while. if i still can't deal with it, i'll go somewhere to cry alone.

I have to be strong, no matter how it is. he has his own life, and i'm not supposed to block it. i need to give him a chance to be with others too. so, Nel, be a girl with the strong heart, if you love him.

"p/s: Please be happy always :)"

Boring + Tension = Not satisfied with myself

i'm not boring coz i don't have works to do, but i'm boring coz i can't do the works now. it makes me dizzy now. many of assignments, other tasking and even problems happen to me. let me do a check list first:

assignment: 

1. Case Study (TED072) - don't know how to relate with theories
2. The meaning of 'Rukun Iman' (CTU082) - doesn't start
3. Argumentative essay (TSL022) - when we should start it???
4. The Bemuda Triangle (TSL032) - i still not doing any research....
5. Storytelling, Radio Drama, Reader's Theater (TLD092) - still not memorize and practice

finish for the assignment... other tasking???

1. Script for English Week - i have already finished a quarter of the script
2. The Lost City Of Atlantis - still not search the fact
3. A Capella project - need to find members 

argh!!! many works to do and must be finished!!! and problem, stop coming and disturbing me... please...